New Mommy Bliss: I Don't Want To Be Fat Anymore!

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

I Don't Want To Be Fat Anymore!

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Weight Loss Journey


I've never been a Skinny girl, but many of my friends always were. I'm shy to talk about my weight to the World Wide Web and I know I'll get some troll comments, but I'm seriously so done with being "Fat". Now before you say anything, I would like to tell you that I'm not doing this or saying this for ANYONE... I just got tired of having to use mini hair ties looped through my pant's buttonhole to hold the button and keep it closed. Now follow along my journey...

As a baby, I was a little chunky thing but it was cute back then. Normal weight in childhood, but when I reached 9 & 10 I was very big. I lost that weight and was your average sized kid.



I fluctuated with my weight for the rest of my younger years and high school. Felt the best in my skin when I was fresh out of High school and attending college. My wardrobe was awesome, I felt cute and VERY good in everything I wore, and had MANY friends.



In 2012, I was pregnant with my Gabs. I was average weight with a round belly and still looked and felt great. When I had Gabby, I was adamant to breastfeeding which helped me melt a lot of the new weight away. Her 1st year was fine on me although I gained some weight. By her 2nd year, I didn't feel right... I didn't want to see people because I knew I was bigger than they'd remember.



She Turned 3 back in January and I felt DISGUSTING! I could actually SEE how Big I am. I know you've heard people say that you never know how big you were until you lose the weight? Well BULLSHIT! I wasn't losing anything, but I could see Everything I gained.
I have a full body mirror in my bathroom that sits right behind the door. I look at it daily whenever I sit on the toilet or even if I want to check out my outfits. I’ve gotten to the point when I don’t even look at the mirror before I leave my house anymore. It just REALLY sucks to be fat.




Because it sucks, I decided to do something about it. I would hit my local gym that’s literally a block away and even after all the intensity, my body did not feel as sore as it did in the past when I attended the gym. I felt like I was doing something wrong and guess what? Maybe I was.


I went to the Gym for a week and it was ok, but I couldn’t feel the Big Burn of the workouts so I decided that I needed to do something different. That’s when I remembered that my sister had once told me about a Jillian Michaels DVD. I was ready to try anything. Let me remind my readers that this post is not sponsored whatsoever. I just wanted to speak to you a little about my “Fat” life. I LOVE food and am sad that I can not eat everything I want if I want to get fit. I decided to Try the 30 Day Shred with Jillian Michaels.

Now I ask you… Do you want to take this weightless journey with me? I am NOT going to do it right at times because I don’t have self control in some things yet (Sweets!), but I am making a promise to myself that I WILL get back to my comfort weight zone! I still love ALL my Skinny & Curvy Gals, but I want to take control of my body again and not let “nature run it’s course.


I’ll Update everyone next week. Thanks for reading!

6 comments:

  1. I am in the same boat, girl. I can't even look at myself in the mirror. =( I struggle with bored eating and sweets as well! I wish you luck! Right now I am trying to focus on consciously NOT grabbing food when I'm not hungry.

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  2. I think you look great already but i understand needing to feel that way inside im going through my own weight loss journey right now as well. Good luck to you cant wait to read the updates.

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  3. I'm right there along with you. I went from 150lbs to 180lbs in just 2 months. Granted I was traveling and when you travel you tend to not eat as healthy but then my family in London were basically stuffing food down my throat and because it was so good, I stuffed my face, so it's my fault. I'm hitting the gym now because it's going to be summer and I need to get back to my perfect weight of around 150. This is about you and not what people think so do what you need to do to make yourself feel better about yourself, but I think you're beautiful!

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  4. Something I didn't know until about a year ago was that if you're starting out overweight, eating less calories is a MUCH more important factor than working out. Of course, being active is great for your health but even doing a dead on RUN for an hour you'll only burn about 400 calories. Of course, only people who have trained for a long time will burn that many calories. So even if you do 2 hours at the gym doing less-strenuous activities you'll probably only burn about 400 calories. To lose 1 pound per week, you have to have a calorie deficit of about 500 calories per day, or 3500 per week. So it's nearly impossible to lose weight by exercising if you don't eat a lot less calories, and it's super easy to lose weight without working out at all, if you cut back on calories. That's why a lot of people manage to stay at a mid-size or even skinny without hitting the gym or being active at all, they just eat less. It took me a long time to accept that because I really didn't think I was eating that much food. And honestly, I wasn't eating that much food in terms of portions. I would never have a heaping plate of food or anything. And I didn't go back for seconds, etc. I was just eating high calorie foods like pizza, chips, etc too often. Now I eat about as much food it's just healthier and lower in calories.

    Eating low calorie is a lot easier if you eat high protein foods. I was shocked that I could cut back 500 calories a day without being hungry just by eating a lot of protein (greek yogurt is my best friend!). If you're choosing high calorie foods that aren't filling it's SO much harder to stick to a low calorie diet so making protein a focus is a huge help.

    Use a calculator like this one (https://tdeecalculator.net/) to figure out how many calories your body burns just by existing, and then try to eat 500 less than that per day. So if your TDEE is 2000 calories a day you'd want to eat 1500 a day to lose 1 pound per week.

    Good luck!

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  5. I know the feeling about losing weight. I have all the excuses of why I can not lose weight and I need to start to get up and go and cut down on the Calories. I have heard of Jillian Michael's dvd, and I want to try it out! I know you can do it!

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  6. I just want to tell you - from someone who is fighting my way through the struggle now - you can do this. It's not a matter of whether or not you're beautiful - you are, and have been, and will always be beautiful at ANY size. Whats important is being HEALTHY <3 Trust me when I tell you that is what will make you comfortable in your own skin. I'll be rooting for you ;-)

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